(without a name)

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i suppose that it was a long time i havent written a thingy like this why? what made me stop? life I finally broke the cuffs of my soul my soul is finally able to show who i am but is that really what it wanted? i mean, i got a girlfriend, and she actually seems to be pretty nice but why do i still feel like something is wrong? why it makes me want to throw everything away and isolate myself from the outside world? why i get chills yet nice memories when i recall the moments of me walking depressed on the shores of adriatic sea while it was all cloudy and gray in the skies? why when you achieve something, you feel like you dont have enough? and then you regret your decision, but you are still happy it feels like i am from the outer space sometimes am i really the one whose shake you can feel, and even sense the emotions?

am i really existent at this point?

it feels like either i am wrong or the people i see

i cant get it

i dont want to beg for having "hard" times not at all they are rather messy than hard ans for that, i suppose, i am a teen to find out, to find out...erson's life while they are working to develop / express their abilities and knowledge

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